Keeping Quiet

 
There's lot of book written under this topic but every writings is unique to one another. Mine too.


We see 21st century as a 'superfastly' growing century compared to the Pre-World War and also after it. You just cannot keep quiet and sit idle. You have to compete yourself forcibly with others in order to get a 'best' position in the world. It's true with all of us. But I cannot accept competition. Everyone is good at their place or say the position.We have to compete because some people love to compare you with others. They don't know what your potential is and they just do it for their satisfaction. We shouldn't care for such people because they don't know whether they are doing correct or wrong and they should matter to you less than God. God is the one who decides what to do and what not. Who are we to take over his place? And I also never felt like that I was ever meant for just competing with the world to satisfy few people!


Right from I was a small girl I always used to stare at people's faces to know what they want to say (and also to see them how they look, LOL). I preferred to keep quiet and listen them. I was a good audience indeed but was not a good speaker.


 Then I grew up(obviously), I was the same, didn't changed a bit. As if keeping quiet was slowly entering into my list of hobbies. There are many people who cannot understand people like me(like my mum). It is difficult for them because of difference in thoughts, habits and all....I will never say because of the surrounding in which they live as in my mum!


Speaking less can become a hellish chamber for those who approach less in almost all activities(especially when it comes to speak in between a huge crowd!). It can deprive them of what they think to do but cannot do. The biggest reason these people are deprived because they feel shy, awkward even if they get a lt of supports. They still unable to face such situations because there's no one to say them,'You can do and you will do it ' cos you are the best.' I also long for this compliment but not heard it yet on my behalf. Other 'non-understanding' people can help financially or by 'outer' help, but cannot help psychologically or emotionally which is very important for them to make understand rather saying,' Everything depends on the luck' and move on.


I also asked to myself why I am like this?I don't know the answer. May be the time of opening my mouth in front of a huge crowd has not came yet.


Everybody say that their childhood and school days were superb, but I say, 'I never found superb kind of thing in my childhood and school days!' The people around me always being very rude, thinking I am ugly, I am blank head, stupid, idiot, which I never want to follow me again in my life. Thinking that life would definitely return me, I mean give e a best gift which I never had.


Truly speaking, I never enjoyed 'sibling love'. How does it feel when I had bro or sis, I don't know. My mum says that I always prefer to be alone always because I never enjoyed the friendly atmosphere right from my home which can be only developed if I had any sibling(s).


Alike others who love to gossip, spend time with their friends, I prefer to spend time alone till date.(till date?Yes). At home I spend most of my time alone rather than with my parents(knowing that they the best for me forever). Therefore I usually express my feelings with the  help of pen and paper.


  I speak less  or you may too, that doesn't mean that there's nothing in the mind and soul.

Many say,' The people who speak less know less of worldy.', but I say ,' Beware of such people. Who knows one day they would be leading the whole world.'